Daily Chizuk #0798

We want tranquility so that we can focus on Hashem more and that’s a good request, but we have to make sure we’re sincere with it. How can we tell? The midrash on the pasuk in Iyov, מי הקדימני ואשלם, says, Hashem tells us if we want to do a mitzvah badly enough and we do it before we technically have the means to, then Hashem says He is going to give us the ability and the means to perform it going forward. For example, if somebody really wants to give a lot of tzedaka, he needs to prove it first by giving as much tzedaka as he could before he’s blessed with a lot. The midrash gives another example, if someone really wants a child in order to raise the child in the ways of Hashem then if they don’t yet have that ability yet, they should help raise someone else’s child in the ways of Hashem by paying for that child’s Torah education. Our actions can prove if we are really sincere with our requests.
If we truly want things in this world to serve Hashem better and we are truly sincere about it, then if it's good for us, Hashem will give us that ability and enable us to serve Him the way we hope to.